It's 5.49 , i just finished my game of dota . I'm really getting the hang of this game and i do not suck as bad as last time . I actually did improve and finally not get scolded or asked to leave the game . hahaha , i guess dota's like math , the more you practise , the more you own .
Life's still a bitch even recently , though things might have gotten better a little , at least for now . I believe this little peace wouldn't last too long once school starts . For the past few days , it's been just cooping myself in the room for 22hours a day , just going out of the room for the toilet and my only meal for the day , gosh . i really cannot imagine . i actually only eat 1 meal a day . pro much . Just that now being nocturnal is more of a alone thing , though there are still afew people online who talks to me occasionally , it'll never be the same as last year where i had someone to talk to the whole night , and finally till morning where we would go to sleep , happy times . Sadly , things aren't the way they were , and they'd never be the same again . Let's hope next holidays i'd be really happy , playing my guts out , enjoying bliss . I choose to believe in happy ever after , and i'd strive for it .
i'm more or less grounded nowadays , with many shitty stuff happening throughout this short period of holidays . i'm allowed out on weekends i guess . I'd better work hard next yr or my holidays would turn out shitty again next yr . You guys hear my blog song ? it's called close to you , i fell in love with it the first time i heard it . It made me think of my crush at that time , so much so i wanted to confess , sadly i lacked the guts , hahaha . maybe the time wasn't right anyway . i heard it during a certain episode of simpsons when i was crazy over it . check this web out , they got all the seasons of simpsons , some even in HD , LOL . damm pro website . " www.watchthesimpsonsonline.com " . fucking awesomezxzxz .
Days like this are rather pleasant i should say , people leaving me alone , i get to sleep whenever i please , pretty much use the computer whenever i want . I'm going shopping with my friend from school tmr , saturday . hahaha , hopefully things between him and i wouldn't change after we go to JC and don't contact as often . I believe in things building to last . Though it seems i couldn't be bothered with most stuff in the world , i truely value good relationships , quantity is bullshit , quality is what i seek .
everything , where ever i go reminds me of you . I don't want to forget , i dont want to move on , i'm happy as it is . I'm not really sure what holds
in the end but it's true , i still miss you . I cannot bring myself to simply forget . Hopefully the person who kept silent on the phone was you . Close to you .
