Overrated

New's year's day is approaching in 3 hours . soon . It feels like any ordinary day in the house , just waking up to the computer , play dota . slack my day away , doing nothing .
school's gonna start , annoying . gotta study , annoying .
anyway , i got over myself and decided to do things that actually will please myself . what will be will be , and what will not be , will eventually be a memory . ( hey! it rhymes ) . (Y)
so probably not to think too much about anything would do me more good than harm . though it'll take awhile of getting used to .

It's actually quite tiring to get serious and try to make things right . Quite much a pain in the prick . it's like an infection in your left ball , and then you get fever cause of the infection and you get a flu cause your immunity is way down . you get my idea . I should go back to being carefree , well not totally , school work is shitty , but shit needs to be clear or it'll stink your area and nothing gets done , like homework , if you dont clear it , more shit will come your way and stink it even more . I never made resolutions for new years , well at least i dont remember any , but for this coming year . i'll make 1 , just 1 will do .

I'll do things that pleases me , and forget and ignore stuff that displeases me .

for then , things will move along , and i'll get myself out of shit i'm sitting in . I'll take what comes along for good memories will always be kept in my heart , fun i had , times that were pleasant . and as for bad memories , doesn't matter . no point harping on it while waiting for a miracle to happen . Same day , different shit .

I don't think i'll get to use much of this thing when school reopens on friday , perhaps on weekends . Until i brush up my work in school . zz . responsibilities , greater load of shit waiting to be cleared . How annoying . anyway , Enjoy your holiday .

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It's just that letting go would make things easier,i got tired .

S 5:26 AM

omg i just trained socks* ahem hiro i meant to sit , pro much .
i is dog trainer , video later .
hahahaha .

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S 7:36 PM

Amazingly , i thought the sore eyes would bug me for a least 5 days , it doesn't hurt anymore .
btw , socks knows how to play fetch alr , i'll upload a video soon . hahaha . the amazing rate he grows up .

S 7:28 PM

Bad luck and screwed up stuff doesn't seem to stop coming .

fucking hell , now i have sore eyes .
fucking pain only , cant even sleep in peace . i'm starting to lose control over myself , soon i'll do nothing but stay in bed waiting for relief to come .
hurts like fuck man . cb .
dont sleep with your contacts on , will kill you .
ahhhhh . fuck .

S 10:52 PM

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY . ( if there is even anyone , don't see any tags recently -_- ) .

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Today was meant to be a special day , coincidentally , it's christmas . How are you doing , been awhile since we last had any contact . I'm still trying to come to terms that i'm all alone now . Somehow my heart still refuses to accept it . I thought by just letting things come my way , handling things as they decend upon me would eventually even things out , it seems like it's not working . It'd been 2 months if we were still tgther . Perhaps i'm just holding on to something that already cease to exist a long time . Hopefully you're doing fine , and perhaps you've moved on a long time ago . Maybe moving on would be a better option , i can't bear to somehow . Sometimes i think i'm really silly . 离开你以后，我并没有自由。
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

S 4:25 PM

EIGHTEEN :
you get so jealous when someone comment them saying they are cute.

SEVENTEEN:
You look at their profile constantly.

SIXTEEN:
When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.

FIFTEEN:
You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again.

FOURTEEN:
You walk really slow when you're with them.

THIRTEEN:
You feel shy whenever they're around.

ELEVEN:
When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.

TEN:
You smile when you hear their voice.

NINE:
When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.

EIGHT:
You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.

SEVEN:
They're all you think about.

SIX:
You get high just from their scent.

FIVE:
You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.

FOUR:
You would do anything for them!

THREE:
While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.

TWO:
You were so busy thinking about that person, you didn't notice number twelve was missing.

ONE:
You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself

S 6:54 PM

IM SO GETTING A TATOOO LIKE THIS .

S 6:23 PM

Perhaps the only other thing left other than pictures ;

S 9:48 AM

POWER NOT . awesomezxz .

S 2:36 PM

It's 5.49 , i just finished my game of dota . I'm really getting the hang of this game and i do not suck as bad as last time . I actually did improve and finally not get scolded or asked to leave the game . hahaha , i guess dota's like math , the more you practise , the more you own .

Life's still a bitch even recently , though things might have gotten better a little , at least for now . I believe this little peace wouldn't last too long once school starts . For the past few days , it's been just cooping myself in the room for 22hours a day , just going out of the room for the toilet and my only meal for the day , gosh . i really cannot imagine . i actually only eat 1 meal a day . pro much . Just that now being nocturnal is more of a alone thing , though there are still afew people online who talks to me occasionally , it'll never be the same as last year where i had someone to talk to the whole night , and finally till morning where we would go to sleep , happy times . Sadly , things aren't the way they were , and they'd never be the same again . Let's hope next holidays i'd be really happy , playing my guts out , enjoying bliss . I choose to believe in happy ever after , and i'd strive for it .

i'm more or less grounded nowadays , with many shitty stuff happening throughout this short period of holidays . i'm allowed out on weekends i guess . I'd better work hard next yr or my holidays would turn out shitty again next yr . You guys hear my blog song ? it's called close to you , i fell in love with it the first time i heard it . It made me think of my crush at that time , so much so i wanted to confess , sadly i lacked the guts , hahaha . maybe the time wasn't right anyway . i heard it during a certain episode of simpsons when i was crazy over it . check this web out , they got all the seasons of simpsons , some even in HD , LOL . damm pro website . " www.watchthesimpsonsonline.com " . fucking awesomezxzxz .

Days like this are rather pleasant i should say , people leaving me alone , i get to sleep whenever i please , pretty much use the computer whenever i want . I'm going shopping with my friend from school tmr , saturday . hahaha , hopefully things between him and i wouldn't change after we go to JC and don't contact as often . I believe in things building to last . Though it seems i couldn't be bothered with most stuff in the world , i truely value good relationships , quantity is bullshit , quality is what i seek .

everything , where ever i go reminds me of you . I don't want to forget , i dont want to move on , i'm happy as it is . I'm not really sure what holds
in the end but it's true , i still miss you . I cannot bring myself to simply forget . Hopefully the person who kept silent on the phone was you . Close to you .

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S 10:58 AM

Your Love Type: INFP

The Idealist

In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.

For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up.

Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.

However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space.

Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ

http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourdatingtypequiz/

go take it , tell me if you're my type ^^ .

S 1:59 PM

Tag replies .

Sams : hello big pusshole , wdv h8 you too , kkthxbai .

nigel : hello dota kaki ^^ . later pwn your ass . hahaha .

bnsdmm : alar , i dreamt of your bf know . lend me your emo bin la .

Jolene : hor ok , you also cheer up ah .

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Sunday, December 14, 2008

OMFG! I just remembered I have not updated this since Paris Hilton was in jail... You would not believe I spend all my time in front of a computer. Please don't abandon me!.

I am so busy with setting fire to people wearing Crocs, sleeping, just generally being a pain to anyone unfortunate to cross my path, my day often feels wasted from crawling out of bed at 6.30 to I run out of alcohol. I am convinced that I absolutely deserve this after all my hard work. I need a nap.

I hope that one day I will write something that makes sense soon. Honestly! Assuming I don't get distracted by counting my chest hairs..

S 1:49 PM

It's 6pm now . i've just woken up from a 19 hour sleep . It wasn't easy trying to keep myself asleep . Sleeping isn't exactly something i enjoy nowadays , in fact , it has just became an outlet to numb myself from everything that's happening . Sometimes i wish i could just give up caring about every other thing on earth and just be really selfish , putting myself first in everything , couldn't give no shit about anyone else . Just sleeping my life away .

but noo ..

the world has to come with responsibilities , thing i " supposed " to do , " supposed " to follow . In additions to problems i face myself i have to deal with family . sometimes i feel though i'm surrounded by people who supposedly care , no one seems to be bothered much about me , end of the day , they just want their face , their pride , their happiness .
so be it , i'm not bothered , doesn't matter . I'm just doing things for the sake of doing things , doing things for my own future , and to keep myself out of trouble . like i haven't had enough to deal with . I'm tired of things not going my way , since this is a selfish world it seems .

Sometimes i feel that i'd still have hope , there's still chance . Then all of a sudden things just come crashing down when i think of stuff that has happened and will not change just because i'm unhappy . The world doesn't revolves around me it seems , i'm confused .

S 1:47 AM

Friday, December 12, 2008

Tag replies.

huien : you seem to enjoy contradicting yourself . have fun (Y)

bnsdmm! : hahaha , which bnsdmm # ? , who dunno who you are -_- . shitzu not cuteee , i dont like pwrish. kkgoeatsweetsdontdisturbmekkthxbai .

Amanda : i wanted to say something sarcastic , but now i cant cause i promised not to call you smt . k sure , come over sometime .

SlaYerDesTinY~ : no i calling it beatrice ^^ .

Ahxuan : ya i say one , but my guarantor haijie , anything find him (Y)

Nigel : My dog i name anything i want ! btw your there got water ? LOL .

Zeon : you also got blog no tell me ! come sayy me . yayaya , got time must bring come out go walk walk only .

Angeline : i think i name it angeline best la , dunnit fight . monday call beatrice , tuesday call angeline , wednesday call nigel , thursday call bengkeat . (Y)(Y) , great success.

S 1:21 PM

It's as if i'm stuck in between somewhere, a point of no return .

there is and always will be an air of awkwardness in the air , a wall in between . Even if things don't work out i hope we'd return to being good friends . Sadly sometimes i think to myself there is no point in this , for things never will be the same again .

a long time ago someone told me this , 如果分手后还能当朋友，就代表没有真的爱过。

today i realise how true it is . I dont want to cheat myself , because i really loved .

S 1:03 PM

Thursday, December 11, 2008

20081025-20081211 .

You were a girl who was impossible to find . I'd be waiting .

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Tuesday, December 02, 2008

It was a bad dream this time round .

S 10:54 PM

I IS CALLING MY DOG " socks " , say .. { sock-su ^^

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